The Lightspeakers

A Princess Kind of Life

2011-04-07T07:08:00.001-04:00

A client has recently experienced a couple of disappointments that have caused her to think perhaps life is getting in the way of her plans/desires again. I know the feeling all too well. I'm sure you may have experienced these feelings at times too.

Sharing our gifts, living our passions, doing what we know we do best is something we all desire; living who we feel we really are. Interesting how we get ourselves into situations all too often in our lives which don't allow us to be who we really are, as though we've cut ourselves off from the parts of ourselves we like best, withhold ourselves from those parts. Maybe its because we don't feel them as being real, or as real as our daily dutified life has come to be, the one we do allow ourselves to live in, but don't like. The one with the duties, obligations, what we think of as normal life. "Oh this must be the one that's real", so the "real" one comes to be all that we don't like, our default position then becomes," my reality is one I don't like but must endure."

I recognize that I'm steeped in this at times, but there must be a way out of it, and I intend to find it, even if that's simply more shifting of perception, and not the exact outer change that I think it should be. I know something will change in my outer circumstances as I continue to shift and grow, so I need to open to whatever that change is, instead of outlining it so closely, and so allow this continued change of perception and evolution of my mind and heart.

Ah, how much easier it is to feel this while there is silence and peace around me. I wonder if the cacophony around me is in my environment because it reflects me on an inner level, places inside in which I'm crying and screaming. Places I need to clear, those places where I'm still in resistance, the places where I haven't forgiven myself, the places where I'm retelling the past.

Today, I intend to create a different story than yesterday, one in which I'm not Cinderella. Granted, I'm not a princess either. So I guess I'll have an adventure today and discover what is in-between. I feel much of the time like Cinderella, ousted from her privileged life when her father and mother died. For a long time I've wanted to return to my former privileged princess life; now let's find out what is going to happen in the new version I'm writing. I'm betting it has nothing to do with glass slippers and a handsome prince. Could be something better in this new modern version, though I kinda am still partial to the old ending, oh well....I'll keep on writing.

Past Perspectives

2011-03-29T09:35:00.002-04:00

Approaching our past with a perspective of not wanting to make the same mistakes again, serves only as a reminder of what we don't want and puts our energy on what we don't want. Our past still exists as a part of our multidimensional experience, the one we remember is the one that our conscious self chose to enact from a limitless number of other possibilities. By judging ourselves for that choice, we ignore the value of the experience thereby limiting the future possibilities we might choose.

Every past experience whether we perceive it as good or not so good, holds a blessing, if we are willing to see it. We can observe the choice we made and ask ourselves questions about what we've learned. Our answers to these questions tells us whether or not we want to continue on that same path in the future and what course corrections may be indicated.
What was I trying to achieve, receive or offer in that situation? What outcome did I believe I needed? How did I feel when a different outcome occurred? Was I fully vested in my power then? How could I have been more conscious of my power? What would I have done differently if I had been more aware? To what degree did my emotions overtake my feeling of empowerment and disguise it?

Asking these questions assists us to change the choices that might have evolved from these past perspectives, had we not consciously processed them in this way. This eliminates those emotions and actions that did not and do not serve us so that we are able to move onto a path of highest good that is fulfilling on all levels.

None of these questions should serve to propel us to regret, but only to increased awareness of ourselves, our growth and most importantly, of our power to make another choice, again and again.

Dreams of Light

2011-03-22T11:12:00.001-04:00

Softly subdued are the jagged edges of memories. Losing form as I sing them lullabies, they languish in the mists of nothingness.
I dream, living dreams of light filled days. Ideas come to sit beside me; they nudge me with the repetitive motion of my mind's yearning for release. Imagination stirred, beginnings of more to come, what joy will it bring? What memory will it transmute? Smiling as I waft down the river of possibility, I come to solid land, to a soft place of subtlety where there exists, no expectations.
No emptiness here, only fullness. I'm held in the embrace of a world where my muses whisper their wisdom softly as snowflakes.

How Do You Create

2011-03-11T12:36:00.000-05:00

March 2011
How do you create?
On a human level we create with both love and fear, The Light (God) creates only through unconditional love. As physical beings, we tend to blame our fears and lack of desired manifestation on God's will, but the responsibility is ours, what are we creating with, love or fear?
We wonder why doesn't God, the angels or our guides simply step in and change this. Why? Because, we are providing the vibration that they will align with, or work through. If we are creating with doubt or fear, they have nothing to connect to- to align with, because that vibrational resonance isn't part of them. Though we are always one with All That Is, we cannot access the power of it, we separate our ability to use that power, when we move into a vibration of fear rather than love. We provide the vibration they will work with on this physical plane.
We don't manifest and create through our humanity, but rather through our divinity. It is when we align with our intrinsic birthright of divinity, that we connect with the power of The Light and higher realms and so create what we desire through love

Heart's Desire

2010-08-24T11:15:00.001-04:00

If asked their heart's desire, many people have a ready list of replies. But do we really know our true heart's desire? Our heart's desire is to know our connection to the Divine, to connect with our spiritual essence.

Our heart's desire is our heart's truth. Living this truth fulfills us. Living in harmony with this resonance, this spiritual integrity, allows us to be, create and discover the good in everything. We flow with life, instead of pushing against it.

The glamorized version of heart's desire is our competitive agendas, our accumulation of things, our drive for success and accomplishment. Beneath such an inauthentic version lies the hunger for a deeper truth. This is why when we do achieve any or all of these; it never feels like enough, it never fills us.

If we allow our hearts to speak, and we truly listen, we hear our truth and this becomes our prayer.

Have You Discovered Your Purpose?

2010-08-23T10:40:00.000-04:00

People often come to The Lightspeakers or the Angels through me, to question their life purpose. They believe that if they discover their one over- riding purpose they will find their joy. The answer that has been offered to them, though specific in each individual case, has a similar basis. Their purpose is discovered from moment to moment. We each have timelines we exist within. At different points on our journey, we really do have different purposes. As we grow and evolve, so does our purpose, but we lose track of this, in the moment purpose, if we are busy searching for one major all important destiny.
We've already discovered our destiny. Our over-riding purpose in being here is to learn to love through limitation. Our mission at different purpose points along the way, is to infuse that particular purpose at that particular place in our journey with as much love as we can

Energy Sensitivity

2010-08-22T10:26:00.000-04:00

I'm becoming more and more sensitive to energy lately. Things that were once tolerable are now setting off alarms like never before. I've always been sensitive to energy. Once I began channeling, certain smells became repugnant to me. I was less and less able to withstand crowds because of the onslaught of so many varied energies assaulting my subtle bodies at once. Antique stores which I love to visit became really difficult. Honestly, I could hear the whispers from all who had once been attached energetically to their pieces of furniture and collectibles. There was sadness and joy, anger and love coming through me. It became very overwhelming at times.

Lately the sensitivity has increased. If I'm not in alignment with my higher good in my thoughts, emotions or behavior, I find myself immediately feeling "off". If I try to make things happen by force of will, things seem to stubbornly come to a standstill, the flow is interrupted, nothing moves. I've learned to recognize those times when I'm trying to force things , either because I want to make something happen, or because it's something that must be done, an obligation. I find if I wait till I feel myself flowing toward and not away from the desire or responsibility, things work out much better and with more ease.

As I've been transforming by my own request, there seems to be less "in between" spaces. I'm either in alignment or I'm not. I've become my own thermometer of sorts. Though it can be helpful much of the time to hold this type of awareness, there are also times when this is quite challenging. As one wave ends and we breathe a sigh of relief, another wave thrashes onto our inner shoreline and we're faced with further discomfort, as we continue to evolve to a higher state of being.

Like everyone else experiencing these mini-tidal waves that seem to rage within, I sometimes wonder if the movement to embody a higher more sacred space is worth it. Yet within the wondering, there is always the steadfast knowing that it is. There really is no turning back, because within the storm lies such great beauty and promise. The wind and rain cleansing what no longer serves, brings calm, the sky clears and dawn breaks upon the horizon. It is a time of miracles for all of us. Turning my face to the clouds, I'm thankful to be a part of this.

Fear & Mediocrity

2010-08-22T10:25:00.000-04:00

Mediocrity is the result of acceding to fear. All of us have the potential for greatness in some shape or form but it dies while on the vine when we refuse to pluck the blossom of possibility.

Fear masquerades as hatred, complacency, at times, anger or resignation. We are not intrinsically creatures of such fear, it is learned behavior, and as such, may be unlearned.

We can choose to recognize our own and others strengths, we can diminish fear by not focusing on our limitations. We can honor our greatness without apology and assist others to do the same. There are truly no mediocre people, only those who have allowed their dreams to die. Please believe in your dreams and recognize your grandeur.

Parallel Realities Of Self

2010-07-02T08:45:00.001-04:00

I've been thinking a lot lately about probabilities and possibilities, what's the difference between them and what do they have to do with parallel selves? A former possibility became a probability and then reality in your life and mine because of a choice we made in the past. Since we know that the past is not “back there” because time is not linear, we understand that, that choice which occurred because of certain thoughts and feelings ,is still available for revision. So if we change our thoughts and feelings about our past, stop miring ourselves in guilt and regret can we affect our present and future,and so open the doorway to another self? The information I've been given is yes, and that there is more than one way to go about it.

One method is that we can revisit the past, go to a particular time and place when we made a decision that we now realize put us on a particular undesired path. If we feel ourselves fully within that moment, relive the surroundings, the view, sights, sounds, smells,tastes,and then make another choice, our inner being believes this is what occurred. Our thoughts and feelings shifted then thereby affecting our thoughts and feelings now, which are currently in synch with this different version, therefore our present self is affected, we have changed and so therefore has our reality. We have now in effect become another version of self.

Another method is going into meditation and feeling our way into a preferred reality, we've all had glimpses of this, if we move into the feeling sense of another part of us, the part that is another possible self, our focus on it brings it out of possibility into probability. From there continued focus even for a short time done consistently, brings this probable self into our reality. It's not that we are disappearing into another alternate place, but that we are drawing it to us here where we are now.

You might want to try both methods to see which one works best for you , sometimes I'll use the first method, sometimes the second depending on my mood, though I find the second method easier to work with overall. I'm committed to doing this work because I've been urged by my guides and Angels to focus here right now as an answer to some issues I was dealing with. It's been very helpful as it's empowered me to realize that many of the aspects I felt I was lacking, already exist for me and within me.

Logic or the Heart's Knowing?

2010-06-17T11:27:00.006-04:00

I believe we are moving into a time of the higher heart. This space within us is not to be confused with sentimentality or sympathy, for yourselves or others. It is an enlightened space within that acknowledges that the intellect alone isn't equipped to guide our path in life and that the application of conscious vulnerability from the higher heart is necessary.

We've been taught to keep our heart closed for self-preservation to promote self-interest as a survival mechanism. Those that do not are cast as either saints (think Mother Theresa), or fools, the latter for the most part anonymous.

We've heard imminent change heralded quite a bit, and yet, the underlying message of logic as our lens for participation in the world remains. If we are frightened that giving reign to this heart space will have us dissolving in tears, unable to cope or strategize, we have nothing to fear. The higher heart, infused with intuitive wisdom will in fact lead us more adeptly through those situations that require courage and foresight. By allowing ourselves to open to allowing situations and others to be who they are, by not personalizing, taking offense at their attitudes and actions, we are opening to a vulnerability that does not include victimization. We will not stand in this space and serve ourselves up as a sacrifice, absolutely not. In fact, the higher heart grants us the wisdom to step aside without judgment when such a potential threat looms. The intellect alone so often infused with ego orientations, has often failed us in this regard.

I recently wrote the following when posting a reply on a friend's blog, it became the prompt for this post and it best sums up my own stance in regard to the logic vs. heart knowing question:
"Whenever I try to lead with my head, my heart trembles a little, I guess it feels a bit lost and forgotten when I try so hard to be logical, the way most of the world says we should be. What I'm learning is that I'm not more in control of anything when my head is in charge. It seems that way, but I'm really more vulnerable because I'm cutting off such a large part of myself.
For me, I like to be consciously vulnerable, when I allow my heart to lead, but don't lose my head, I may not be invulnerable, but I usually manage to handle most of what comes my way."

Painting Life with Light

2010-06-15T10:38:00.004-04:00

It has been said that we create our reality. I believe we create through remembering. Remembering where we come from and who we really are enables us to create as artists painting with Light. Our desires are so strong simply because we remember having them, living them, being them. Where we come from all is ours without limitation, we've come here to re-create this within limitation. Seems like a strange thing to do, yet we are images of the Divine, individually creating in another context, one which appears much of the time to be steeped in hostility, greed and fear.

Creating within this context appealed to our soul just as a mystery thriller appeals to our human mind. The particular context we are presently creating in is one of the most difficult to delve into, there are other worlds a bit easier to navigate. Yet souls actually line up for the enormous challenge of Earth School. Do you relate to raising your hand for some of the most difficult courses? If so, I was the one next to you, waving enthusiastically, volunteering for a few semesters in accelerated learning.

Sometimes I regret volunteering, sometimes I am awed by the fact that I seemed to get a passing grade. Mostly I try to remember that what I'm creating is a choice, and I came here with everything I need to paint my life with light. I've only recently begun to understand that the temptation to correct others canvasses doesn't improve their picture, that the shadows I may see in their paintings are caused by my standing too close and blocking the light. When I go back to focusing on my own creation, mine becomes brighter and reflects light into life's studio.

The Joyof Knowing One's Purpose

2010-04-15T18:06:00.003-04:00

I've just finished an Angel reading for someone in Belgium. It is difficult to put into words the joy and expansiveness I feel when doing a reading. This feeling stays with me for quite a while afterward as does the energy of the person I have read for.

I felt so much oneness with this individual and her family, I could see her spirit so clearly, see and feel the energy of where she lives, though I know little in the worldly sense of small Belgian villages , yet I was there. The connection that occurs in such a reading for someone is something I cherish, it is lasting and unbroken ever after and it is what I finally have come to understand as what is meant by “we are all one”

I feel incredibly honored to be doing this work, when I'm in the midst of it, I am outside of time and space. Whether in the moment I am united with the angelic realm or the dimension of The Lightspeakers, I feel the purity of their energy soaring through me as grace, as I also feel the deep beauty of the spirit of the person they are connecting with through me.

I have never felt more sure of what I am meant to do, I realize this is truly my right place and my mission. I cannot begin to offer enough gratitude for what this has come to mean to me as my life's work. To have this trust placed in me by the higher realms as well as those who come to me requesting guidance and healing, surpasses any wealth I could attain or the best of worldly circumstances.

I can only echo the words of The Lightspeakers and the Angels : “Amen” and “Rejoice”

Spiritual Being Practicing Human

2010-03-13T15:26:00.001-05:00

We always have the choice where to set our attention, our life's landscape is hellish or heavenly based on our choice of perspective. I'm finally beginning to really get this in my own life. Focusing on the good brings more joyful experiences, focusing on what I deem to be the not so good brings me more to fear.

If I look through the eyes of my soul, aided by the lens of spiritual sight
I see my continued growth,I can feel my frequency rise and sense the good that is coming. When I have lived with the sense that life was against me, those illusions rose up as specters of lack in all areas of my life.

Life on the physical plane can indeed be challenging at times, yet it is less so when I remind myself that everything, absolutely everything is an opportunity for learning and growth. An opportunity to increase my ability for love, compassion and trust. We are not mythological heroes being challenged to endure tragedies by the gods as part of their parlor games. We are given life by the Light along with free choice always inherent within it. This beneficent Source wants only our good and our joy, not punishment for what we see as our misdeeds. We are not being forced to behave by the threat of retribution the Universe is loving not vengeful and allows us to choose how and when we will come into an understanding of our wholeness. It's through my own choices that I have set up my life experiences, it is through my perception regarding those choices that I can live as a warrior fighting everything that gets in my way, as a victim without power or as a spiritual being on a journey of rediscovering who I truly am. I'm free to chastise myself for my mistakes and wallow in regret and fear of the consequences or I can forgive myself and others, knowing we are all doing the best we can based on our current perceptions.

If I'm upset it indicates that I'm out of alignment with myself and my highest and best. Instead of feeling guilty for it, I allow whatever the feeling is to pass through me and I move forward....most of the time. I'm a spiritual being but a practicing human as well. As a spiritual being I know I am worthy, as a practicing human I frequently need to remind myself of this.

So I continue the unfolding journey, sometimes with sadness but more often of late with the joy that lies at the center of my being, holding the goodness that I believe for others, myself, my life and my connection to the whole. I'm now able to be thankful for things I once would never imagined worthy of gratitude,for people in my life I now see as having been my teachers. The messages continue to come, more frequently and clearly as I realize more and more my own power to create in this life.

Are You Plugged In To The Field Of Blessings

2010-03-12T11:32:00.002-05:00

Some call it the “Morphogenetic Field”, some call it the greater “Mind Field” or simply the “Field”, I call it the “Field Of Blessings”. Regardless of what it is called, it is a palpable energy Field. Most of us know someone for whom life seems to work, at least most of the time. Those fortunate few who seem to be so blessed. We wonder why, what is their secret? The secret is they are plugged into the Field. When we align ourselves, plug into this energetic Field, we too can live gracefully with ease and flow.

You are not plugged into the Field if you perceive an undesired circumstance in your life as an obstacle to your good.

You are plugged into the Field if you see an undesired circumstance as holding valuable and meaningful information.

You are not plugged into the Field of Blessings if you believe this block to be an external force.
You are plugged in if you realize it represents an internal belief.

You are not plugged in if you believe success is on hold until this block changes or is removed.
You are plugged in if you look for:

The purpose of the situation – what am I not seeing, what could I be seeing differently?
What attitude might I change?
Is there a better thought about this, a better approach?
Am I ready to have what I want with the perceived obstacle still present?

You are not plugged into the Field if you believe the situation can be “fixed” by using intellectualizing, pressure, aggressive action, money.

You are plugged into the Field if you are open to resolution by:

Being clear about yourself and your desires
Identifying your root belief which has created the circumstance as an obstacle
You are willing to listen to inner promptings of intuition
You are willing to let go of the belief.

Change always begins within, the power is there for you as soon as you are ready to plug into it.

Published on Selfgrowth.com 6/09

The Conversion of Personal and Collective Energies

2010-01-18T10:40:00.000-05:00

The Great Awakening has occurred; it is leading us to a deeper orientation and recognition of ourselves within the framework of Creation. Divine Grace assisted by Angelic energies has assisted in the shifting of our personal and collective spiritual vortices. We have made the decision to release our lesser modes of being; the constrictions of Self we held are now falling away. We are now capable of containing the deeper sense of our true Selves, emerging as chalices of greater Grace, the truth of our souls revealed.
We are agreeing to bring into our life experience through our expression the pure intent of Spirit. We hold now a new and higher degree of light within us. A threshold of molecular reconfiguration is no longer only a possibility, but the threshold we have crossed to rediscovery and re-orientation of vast spaces of Truth, Trust and belief. We have not been without difficulty, feeling the compression of old attitudes and emotions heavy upon us, urging us to remain anchored in the paradigm of illusion. This temporary disharmony will not permanently dishearten or prevail. It is a resounding call that release of limitation is at hand, as we reconcile with our evolving physical vehicle and increased spiritual abilities and mastery.
The seeds with which we plant our creative concepts as we enter this higher level of consciousness are critical. Far more than ever before, we shall reap what we sow, and now, more quickly. As we recognize and consciously direct the power of our abilities, it is imperative that they are based upon a foundation of the good of the whole as one. Collective experiences as well, created as potential probabilities are becoming imminent reality. The funeral wrappings of the ego’s limitations are cast off as we are reborn anew with the resolve to live from a fuller, vaster place of spiritual recognition
Our commitment to demonstrate that we may transcend and transform any experience through love is paramount dissolving karmic residue in the process. External forces will no longer dictate our manner of life, self knowing allows for a multiplicity of rings in the pool of all possibilities. Though there is yet some sludge that may from time to time float to the surface, it is no longer confined to the depths of our psyche and is ready to be released to be cleansed and purified more easily and swiftly.
The Old despondency of longing is replaced by capturing the essence of one’s desire in new forms as our wants are upgraded to a curriculum of spiritually predicated desires, whose fulfillment provides a higher level of satisfaction for the whole. We are truly together within the Whole as One.

The Neigborhood Of Disappointment

2010-01-05T15:45:00.001-05:00

When Disappointment comes knocking at our door, it is a signal to alert us that we need to view a situation from a higher perspective. Without investigation and understanding, a resignation to reside in the neighborhood of disappointment will infuse our lives with lack and hopelessness. This will result in the silencing of our inner voice which becomes overlaid by the deafening shouts of the ego’s misperception. This brings us out of balance lowering our energy and resulting in setting up our creational address at a location in the lower frequencies of self judgment.

Transported by Faith beyond the frontier of hope we are relocated to higher ground to a residence of Trust. Here success is not measured by former worldly standards, here, self-acceptance and understanding harmoniously abide. Though disappointment may be passing through, it is not invited to stay and its visit of short duration results in our expanded knowledge and the impetus that propels us to a consistent and continual enhancement of our purpose.

Sunday Snippets of Thought

2010-01-03T15:29:00.002-05:00

Each gesture of compassion and understanding you share with another comes directly from the heart of God, your exercising of it touches all of creation, as it travels through time and space back to its origin. Be it butterfly or Angel, it changes the world.

At any juncture in your experience of worldly time you may if you choose to do so consciously, discover another member of your soul family unknown to you presently. You can create a celebratory collaboration with this one for your life's work, or for the fulfillment of the essence of the longing for close family connection.

Do You Live In The Land of Trouble?

2009-08-27T10:15:00.003-04:00

All Fairytales are based on truth…..

Once upon a time there was a girl named Troublelina who lived in the Land of Trouble. She hummed/vibrated, lived, thought, felt at the level of misfortune. The Land of Trouble was not a happy place to live.
The people living there were a lot like Troublelina, they all mostly talked about how hard things were, how nothing seemed to go their way, how much trouble they had. They even held contests to see who held the record for the most trouble in their lives. Troublelina had won this contest several times.

Everyone wanted to live somewhere else, yet none could believe that a better place existed. Everyone agreed, and this didn’t happen often, that there was…sigh…no other land but the Land of Trouble.
One night after tossing and turning due to worry, Troublelina finally fell asleep and had an unusual dream; she dreamt that she lived in a very different land, a land where people were friendly and happy. It was a light-filled place. It was called the land of Ease. The people there lived without conflict, complaints and misfortune. It did occasionally rain in this land but when it did, the people still smiled, they didn’t complain, they found something to focus on and to do that was positive. Rainy days became opportunities for creativity. They even had a Contest of Creativity.

When Troublelina awoke she just knew in her heart that this land existed and believed she would find it. She set the intention, made the decision, trusted herself. Instead of worrying how she would get there or how much packing she needed to do, she closed her eyes and imagined herself there, in this wonderful land, in every detail. She saw it, she felt it, tasted it, smelled it! That’s when it happened, some might call it a miracle, others would call it the result of expectation. She opened her eyes….and she was there. Troublelina had moved from the Land Of Trouble to the Land of Ease!

The Land Of Ease was everything Troublelina had expected it would be, everything she had imagined. She would love for you to write if you have any questions about her experience. She’s changed her name though; it seemed like the natural thing to do. Just address it to Easealina in the Land of Ease. Don’t forget to include a return address, where was it you said you lived? Oh, the Land of Trouble, too bad. You might want to consider relocating; it’s easier than you think. Don’t bother to pack, leave your baggage behind. Close your eyes and see yourself living in the Land Of Ease. Feel yourself giving and receiving love, living in trust, honoring yourself, knowing you are cared for. Understanding you have the power to transform all aspects of your life to good with your intentions and feelings. Now open your eyes! Welcome home.

©Christie Pennington

The Blessing Train

2009-08-05T07:03:00.002-04:00

Let me tell you about the Blessing Train. As a child we frequently visited a family who were not biologically related but were nonetheless like family to my mother and me. They appeared to my childlike eyes to be perfect, the perfect family. I always felt safe when I was there visiting for the weekend. At night in bed you could hear the train whistle calling in the distance, it was incredibly comforting, an anchor of my experience there, the sense of kindness and safety I felt.

Where I live now, I can again hear a train whistle in the night and early morning, a reminder of that long ago time, it evokes a bittersweet memory. Most of the time I hear it when I’m communicating with my Angels, quirky how it seems to always arrive at that particular time. It seems to come as a confirmation from them that I am safe.

Not too long ago I had a vision as the whistle echoed in the distance. As it came closer I saw a train coming into the station of my town, average looking people were on the train, talking, playing cards, doing things average people do. But as the train entered the station and passed through the town, all these average people rose to take their places on both sides of the train facing the windows. Palms raised they looked out smiling, their ordinary clothes gone, as they were transfigured to light, and wings appeared. Standing there, these lovely Angels of light were blessing us, the entire town, all of us.

Now I realize this vision would most likely be considered a fantasy by some who look kindly upon me, considered something less charitable by those who do not. It doesn’t really matter, because each time I hear the train whistle I see this clearly and know that I am blessed. So whether you regard my story as fantasy, or something else, in any case, know that you are blessed too.

The Void

2009-07-31T07:09:00.004-04:00

The void felt so large, so dark
It grew larger and larger until it I felt is was all of me
That large gaping emptiness that was all that I was
I looked and looked all around to be filled,
The void grew still larger
It was then I stopped looking
And asked for transformation from within.
It was then I felt the warmth
Descending, the Light poured
I stretched, opening to receive
And the void began to morph
Becoming a cup
And still the Light poured and the cup expanded
Till it became a chalice of grace
Filled to the brim and overflowing

©C. Pennington

Mystical Forest

2009-07-28T13:35:00.004-04:00

I live in the midst of a mystical forest, my backyard is a very special place filled with old towering trees that hold messages and memories. Majestic in height, they keep darkened private places, yet allow the light to stream through in various spots shining warmth, grace and future possibilities.

The trees like wizards frozen in time, their branches like long beards swaying gently in the wind, whisper their visions. I visit these wizened wizards that grow here often. At one time I resented them as an intrusion, now I seek their wisdom and comfort.

They speak of many things, for some time now they have spoken of the Portal. A wisdom gate uniting dimensions. Through hushed voices accompanied by nuances of light dancing through their leaves, I came to truly see and recognize the power that this space evokes. It has since become home to the of the Angel Of Grace, a statue lives there now bathed in flowers. At any time of day, the light joyfully casts itself upon this reminder of Grace given, flowing through all dimensions here. Each morning I'm urged to greet this space gratefully with open mind and heart to edit the past, invoke the future and adore the present.

I invite you to come and visit, if only in your mind's eye and travel to your other dimensions. Meet your other selves as I do mine. Those aspects of yourself glimpsed here and there, bleed-throughs from the selves that made a different choice. Discover those other aspects experiences and wisdom and integrate them with your own. Listen carefully to what they tell you and return with the knowing of your own power.

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The Presence of Peace

2009-07-08T16:53:00.018-04:00

Freedom of time, to find the presence of peace, a freedom not within my current reach

Time to sit in the stillness, to remember, to appreciate all that is, and perhaps all that is not

The chaos persists just the same, despite the willingness to learn to shift, to change

Small apexes open up and the elusive seems within my grasp, there it is, a space, a moment of peace,

Then it slips away into an unknown place waiting for me to play hide and seek, to find It again

It always returns but I beg it to never leave, to stay with me to be fully present always

The awareness place of peace is what I’m learning

Being the presence of that peace within whatever chaos is present in the moment

I’m challenged by the difficulty, yet persist nonetheless, perhaps persistence is pointless

And I merely need to open, to accept, to embrace what I now pursue
I wonder if I had more freedom of time, would peace be more present?

Or is it my gift that I do not, so that I must reach for it within the constraints at hand

Dance with it outside of time, breathe it in each moment

The 5th Eye; Seeing into the 5th dimension

2009-06-23T14:24:00.004-04:00

As many of you know, I facilitated a Summer Solstice Gateway ceremony bringing in the Ascension energies of self-love recently. Several of those who took part in the Ceremony long distance have asked about the mention of the presence of Archangel Tzapkiel.

Archangel Tzapkiel is not generally well-known except to those with a knowledge of the Kaballah where he plays a significant role. In a metaphysical context Tzapkiel contains most of those traits for which he is known in the Hebrew text but is also associated with the third eye as we move into the 5th dimensional frequency. We are already many of us straddling both 3rd and 4th dimensional comprehension. The Ascension or Shift as it is also called brings us more predominately into the 5th.

The sixth chakra known as the third eye at the vibrational frequency of the 5th dimension becomes known as the 5th eye as higher psychic abilities become prevalent. The third eye is associated with the pineal gland, which for most of us is inactive or underactive, after puberty. This is also changing as we shift and the pineal takes on a more active role facilitating the increased abilities just mentioned.

Some of the other glands of the body have already been undergoing changes. Many of those who have opened as channels have undergone thyroid problems over the last decade. I myself had my thyroid removed due to illness not too long before I began channeling. This is not to imply that we have to lose our body parts to move into higher awareness, many do not share my experience, I mention it only to illustrate that our physical as well as subtle bodies are going through remarkable transitions. We are evolving humans moving to a higher level of experience though still in the physical. Evolution has not been completed, it continues as we move into becoming beings of light. The pituitary, thyroid, thymus and hypothalamus glands are all affected by spiritual development and the quotient of light present in our energy bodies. All the clairvoyant abilities which are natural though dormant for many will become fully functional.

The third eye or 5th eye as it functions at the 5th dimensional level allows for a much higher degree of perception which extends to a higher level of communication. We are moving toward a Unity never before seen on this planet, higher perception and communication will establish and maintain such Unity. A Unity in which each of us desires for another what we desire for ourselves, a time in which we will return to know community in a richer more loving evolved way that brings us to a true understanding that All are One.

Spiritual Puzzles

2009-04-16T10:05:00.004-04:00

Sometimes I’m a bit overwhelmed at all the spiritual/metaphysical offerings out there, too many to imagine, many diverse approaches. I wonder what it all really means, the big picture. Are all these teachers, offering truth? Are they/we all authentic? How is it possible if there are so many versions? Is it all a meaningless morass of monetary megalomania, or is it magnificence? Have you ever wondered?

Obviously, I have and here’s what I’ve come up with. Millions of puzzle pieces comprising millions of individual puzzles all contributing to one vast universal picture. Each of us is seeking those pieces that fit our particular puzzle. We each find our puzzle pieces in our own way at our own time as we sort through them and piece them together. The multiplicity of services and modalities out there are all valuable. They all offer pieces of someone’s puzzle, some fit yours, others fit mine.

What if the puzzle piece/service offered is motivated strictly by greed. I believe this occurs less frequently than most imagine, but can this hold any value? It does because somewhere some person is desperately seeking an answer, their puzzle piece may have strange origins but if it fits their puzzle it works for them. They’ve found an answer, a need was met, hope fulfilled, confirmation found, sustenance supplied...... or not. Maybe they needed the experience of a sham to learn the nuances of trust or some other related lesson, they gained some value. Certainly I don’t promote spiritual scamming or greed, I’ve been outraged by it, but then, that was only my perception, my own judgment of a process I may not fully understand.

Then there are those in greater multiplicity who do stand steadfast in truth and authentically contribute their version of it in service. Multitudes are assisted and served as a result. All the versions, all the pieces are valuable, each to someone searching for their particular piece of their puzzle. All the puzzles fit together to form a vast picture, network of good. A grand puzzle of a beneficent Universe in which each is called to offer what is theirs to contribute, receive what is theirs to learn. I’m reminded of the saying from a few years ago, “It’s all good”. And so it is!

Holy Beings

2009-04-14T18:17:00.003-04:00

We've all dealt with pain but there's really no adequate means of measuring it. It's an individual experience, though generally certain events are considered more painful.
Because pain is so uncomfortable and
Because it causes many unpleasant repercussions in our lives, our desire to decrease or eliminate it is understandable. In fact, for some of us, the desire to keep pain at bay causes us to retreat from living our lives fully. Or our inability to shed our pain often leads us to pass it on to others in a mindless exchange of pain participation.

When I first realized that carrying my past pain with its accompanying bitterness and resentment, was actually causing me to draw more of it to me, I was stunned. The Law of Attraction it seems works both ways.

I wish I could say the mere realization of this immediately changed everything, that in one awestruck lightening filled moment I was healed of my need to carry past pain and pass it along. Truthfully, that wasn't the fact.

Transforming pain is a process but I have made significant progress and that progress has made life a much richer experience for me. As we honor ourselves and our lives as sacred, we may wish to remember to also honor others experience of pain, though not the pain itself. Some experiences that cause one individual pain may not be the cause of pain for another. Sometimes we may judge another's pain as insignificant so we don't offer a supportive spirit to those whose pain we may feel is trifling compared with our own.

I'm reminding myself here as I remind you, that pain whatever the source, is a deep and difficult experience. Many times in order for us to move through and out of the pain process we really need to know that not our pain itself but our experience of it is validated.

Let's remember to join together in doing this for one another as part of honoring ourselves and others as Holy Beings.

I honor you.....Christie
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Identity Crisis

2009-04-13T07:47:00.003-04:00

Ever wonder who you really are? Having trouble with self-identity? Here's a clue, it's not your job title, who you are married to, or not. Your car, or your house, your kids or your achievements.

It's the unencumbered soul who showed up within that tiny baby before the first candle was placed on the birthday cake. The authentic one, the one that cried when it was hurt, the one that reached out it's hands expecting it's needs to be met, expecting love....being love.

Yes, even believing it was the center of the Universe, because this soul understood that it was the Universe. An integral part of everything, no separation, part of the All That Is - One With God.
There was no identity crisis. This is who you were....this is who you are.

You know who you are.....Christie

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The Fountain Effect

2009-03-12T14:46:00.004-04:00

If we approach our desires from a standpoint of lack, by forcing and clutching to grab our desires from outside of us. Believing we don’t have them within us, we invoke struggle. Struggle often doesn’t result in achieving our desired outcome. Coming from a position of lack causes us to look outside ourselves instead of within.

Our attitude and belief must be one of spreading, expanding, flowing from our inner reserves into the outer world, not trying to capture something we don’t have from out there, to bring it into us to fill up our reservoir. Like attracts like. A wise teacher once said that “to those who have, more will be given”. I found that very confusing for a long time. It came around again in a song “them that’s got shall have, them that’s not shall lose”, I still didn’t get it. What’s difficult for us to get about this is that we can’t see what’s already there within us. We don’t see the evidence of it in the physical so we assume it doesn’t yet exist. We want to see it first and believe it later.

I believe that one of the services that Angels provide is to remind us that “it’s all inside”. You don’t need to share my belief in Angels to believe this to be true. You can call it what you want, your inner voice, your intuition, whatever the term, there is that something that does prompt us, if we’re listening. They/It whisper that the attributes we desire in our lives are already there within us, waiting to flow outward. To be let loose to flow out into our lives and then back to us abundantly in much the same way a fountain operates.

This harkens back to the “being, doing, having” concept which is invaluable. I don’t know about you but I’ve spent a great portion of my life looking outside to acquire fulfillment of my desires. The “having” always seemed to dictate the “being”. The “having” was then achieved by the “doing”, according to the world's standards.

We can’t simply paste on a “being” in the way that children once dressed paper dolls. When we try to force a new self-image onto our personality this is exactly the same process. Pretending isn’t “being”, what’s missing here is the soul. The soul is the “being” aspect. It already contains what we desire, we don’t need to pretend. So the being aspect comes from our remembering our soul nature and emanating from that part of us. This isn’t pretending because the soul is always in connection with The Light and contains all the attributes of the Light.

Our soul already contains the love, wisdom, peace, power and prosperity we desire. This is where the flow originates. Then as it flows from this inner reserve out into the world, it returns to us showering us with all abundance.

Flowing abundance and love......Christie

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Going For The Jugular

2009-03-11T09:45:00.010-04:00

Psychic Vampire is a colorful phrase that really offers a clear visual of this experience. If you have not experienced an interaction of this kind, count yourself as fortunate. Most of us have however interacted with one, at one time or another. Even more alarming is the idea that we may actually have been the vampire in question unconsciously.

Psychic vampires suck energy from us whether or not they mean to at the time. Ah, the light dawns, (no pun intended) do you perhaps recognize an occasion or two where you may have indulged in this behavior? It's one of those things we never associate with ourselves when it comes up in conversation. It's naturally one of those "other" people who indulge in such behavior. You know, the ones on the far side of your recognition field with a big sign with letters scrawled in red identifying them clearly.

Unfortunately they are not often clearly distinguishable whether they be us or someone else. A psychic vampire can be anyone, a friend, lover, parent, child. Well, maybe not, we'll let most of the kids off the hook since we expect them to drain us dry, it's part of the job description as a parent that we signed on for. Though it's possible for a parent to display vampirish tendencies, it's much more frequently found among friends and lovers.

Then there is the case of those psychic vampires that actually do consciously mean us harm. I'm not speaking gypsy curses here, though I won't rule out the possibility of it's attempt by some. I'm speaking of the sort of thing when you know others may not only delight in your misfortune but may be be willing to take part in some activity to promote it. Those who hold on to grievance's real or imagined for centuries.

There are many reasons a psychic vampire may become part of your life. Much of it has to do with them. Your involvement is the part of you that is serving as a trigger, usually some fear or strong anxiety you hold is of a vibration they carry and can attach to.

The best way to deal with anyone you sense is bleeding you dry in any way is to be sure you have no places within you they can attach to. Bitterness, envy, negativity.Psychic vampires feed on your fear. If you hold no fear in relation to them or anger, they have nothing to attach to, you lift yourself up above the situation. You can see yourself outside the situation from above, knowing no harm can reach you. Flowing love and kindness from a place of safety.

Of course the best course is to live in a frequency which they do not inhabit which means consciously monitoring our own thoughts and declining those negative anxieties and doubts that abound in their feeding field. Although we can't remain positive 100% of the time, being aware and moving back into a positive state keeps us less likely to become victims.

We also need to stay aware of when our own energy begins to dip, if we wait till it sinks too low we may attempt to use another as a vehicle to raise our vibration because it seems easier then working on ourselves and raising our own energy. Ask for assistance from your angels and guides as soon as you begin to feel yourself slipping. Take care of yourself, eat well, rest. Surround yourself with those things that feed your soul, so that you won't go on your own feeding frenzy or become another's energetic meal.

In Light.....Christie

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Monday's Blessing

2009-02-09T13:07:00.002-05:00

I've always disliked Monday's, actually many times I've hated Mondays. Today was definitely one that fell somewhere between dislike and strong dislike when I discovered there had been a bit of a break down in financial communications with not one but two creditors. That was not the way I had thought I would begin my week, the surprise factor made it all seem worse along with the fact that I quickly felt myself slipping into self-pity.

When I do that I always get angry at myself because I'm supposed to be the person that shows others how to deal with such stuff and here I am doing a not so great job of it myself. What if anyone found out? What if they knew that I fell into the trap of self-pity and a moment of...make that several moments.....okay twenty minutes of "what's the use" of trying?

So you ask "Where's the blessing"? Kinda like " I still don't see the pony". Here it is, I decided that I would find the blessing. Based on the fact that I facilitate a monthly Blessing Circle it seemed like an apropos choice to actually implement what I was co-creating in the group.
It was the decision that was the Blessing. I made the decison to look away from the issues and focus on the Blessing, any Blessing I could find, but in the act of doing that....I had already found one.

This may not seem like a big deal and I was at first reluctant to write about it and put it out there, but for me, it said that I had made a fairly large leap forward. I usually practice what I preach....except for those times that I'm hit unexpectedly with financial problems I didn't know I had. The ones that hang around regularly, those I can usually manage.

Then I realized all the other blessings inherent in Monday being Monday. A fresh start, a new beginning, anticipation of what I would create in the coming week, opportunities to learn and serve in the days ahead and more. Monday did and does hold a Blessing, it gave me the opportunity, sooner rather than later to walk my talk.

For any out there that find Monday's difficult I challenge you to look a bit more deeply at what it may afford in the way of opportunity and insight.

Have a Blessed Monday!

Infinite Possibility

2008-12-18T07:57:00.004-05:00

I'll begin this with the qualification that I don't claim to be a master but I do believe we come here to embody our divine origins in the physical and that as a species we are moving ever closer to that realization. Mastery of our lives is attained by harmonizing with a higher level of consciousness. This higher plane is the realm of original Mind, call it what you will; Source, the Universe...I call it the Light. The ultimate truths of reality; love, joy, peace, prosperity lie here within this Mind, not in the distortion of our limited physical world.

We see these as intangible and unreachable because we live in the physical realm of illusion. It is illusion because it is only a reflection not reality and as we know by looking at a reflection in water and many mirrors, it is often distorted.

When we learn to mentally unite ourselves with the best things, the highest things, that is what we will experience in life. The superior solutions for health, love and power lie within us when we are willing to accesss them through linking to a higher lever of experience. To create a magical life we must deny what others call pragmatic thinking and see it for what it is, limited thinking. Such logical thought posited that man could never fly, or communicate across thousands of miles. We now know with certainty that such thinking though pragmatic at the time, was limited.

We must deny the reality of this world to live in the truth of a higher consciousness of belief in the availability of the best. We must respond to the question " Who do you think you are to believe you can achieve prosperity, love and joy" by saying " I am infinite possibility"

Self-love

2008-12-08T08:11:00.003-05:00

We come with glad tidings of News appropriate to your love of self. Much ado is made about love of others and the sacrifice of new birth that you commemorate in your world this Season. Yet we come speaking differently, with reminders of love....of yourselves.

Others will tell you to give to others in this Season of Revival of birth, but we tell you to remember to love deeply who you are. Invest yourselves as well in learning what most deeply brings you peace, brings you joy, brings you meaning, and spend time, even small bits of time doing such things as often as possible, with the intention of showing love for yourselves.

When you are tempted to put yourselves in way of harm such as imbibing those things you may have sworn off of such as richness of food or drink not desired, ask yourself - "is this a loving act toward myself"? When feeling angry, disappointed or frustrated with another or a situation and about to lash out, ask within - "how will I feel towards myself after I blow this steam outward, will I feel loving toward myself"?

When you stop in the moment and ask yourself - "is this love, does this feel loving...for me....to me, much does change. Part of that change becomes more love displayed toward others also, yet this is not the reason we suggest it.

We suggest this little bit of selfishness, this love of self first, and then others, so that you will not be depleted. The well of love from which others drink is filled from within first. You cannot take a teaspoon to the well and then serve a thirsty man a cup of water.

You begin by quenching your own thirst first, by bringing the biggest vessel you can to love's Source and drinking deeply. No more teaspoons, not even cups, we say, begin with a few gallon jugs, then graduate to larger and larger containers that you fill yourselves up to the brim with self-love. Then you may serve a thirsty world.

Lessons

2008-11-24T13:36:00.002-05:00

Only ask for assistance and your newest opportunity for learning comes,
The newest lesson presents itself
Ask for it to come easily and gently
Gently, easily, joyfully
Learning doesn't need to be difficult
We make it so hard
Come from within instead of waiting for things to come from without
Feeling the essence is what truly matters
Going forward on our path with purpose despite outer contradictions
Believing, believing
Knowing for some of us our purpose arises anew in every moment
For others, it's unchanging theme
Resonates and unravels
Consistently throughout their lives
Their directional map set to on, always
Either way, the journey can be easy or hard
Make up your mind
Which will you have?

choosing Joy

2008-11-24T13:30:00.003-05:00

Encompassing joy
I sit marveling
At the wonder surrounding me
Variety and complexity
Of people and situations
The smell of coffee and newspapers
Multitudes of realities, theirs and mine
Can we step into one another's and share momentarily?
Or shall I close my eyes and when I open them
Find that I have created an entirely new one for myself
Which includes them
Choices of worlds to live within abound
So many chosen unhappily before
I choose differently now

The Moment

2008-11-24T13:25:00.002-05:00

I live in the moment it seems, until....
I move into the reality of others
Reminders of time,
The linear prison of thoughts and actions
Dedicated to fear of, not enough.

Reprimanding myself doesn't work
It only brings harm and disharmony

So I embrace it all,
The now, the then, the never
The almost, the may be, the will be
And come once more to this moment

Frequency Leaning

2008-05-20T09:44:00.005-04:00

Have you noticed that it seems easier to imagine negative events bordering on the bizarre as possibilities in our lives than it does positive ones? It was for me, for much of my life. Outrageously positive events were not the substance of my daydreams, they seemed so unlikely, even impossible. Yet, fortunately it came to me that it's as likely for those outrageously positive events to occur as the negative, just by the law of averages. If we give credence to the negative possibility, then the positive tendency must also exist.

But that still means there's as much opportunity for the negative as the positive. Maybe that's why some of us don't delve into the really good stuff when we visualize, we're subconsciously thinking that if we go to excess in the positive, if it doesn't work, we may end up with an excess of the negative....so better to just stay safe and not ask for, visualize or otherwise conjure up anything to wonderful.

It sounds silly, but I know this was somehow implicit in my process for a long time and I'm thinking it may be for others unconsciously as well. So how to tip the scales in the positive favor with no fear of the down side?

There's lots of methods out there, we all know about visualization, affirmation, "The Secret". I've decided to try another method that feels really good to me right now. It has to do with alternate realities. I'm not an authority on quantum physics but I know enough to understand that there is a strong argument for the existence of an alternate reality. Living in more than one dimension. It's a bit egotistical to think, ours is the only one. There are a myriad of realities. Many that exist here on the planet and then the ones that exist elsewhere. I'm betting, that with all those choices, there's at least one of them within which, life holds outrageously, bizarrely, wonderful experiences. I've decided to shift, lean slightly off my usual center into that frequency of reality and experience there....while here.

By consciously questioning my thought patterns while awake, programming myself before sleep and generally altering my thought patterns and behavior I believe I can experience quite differently. I've already noticed some synchronicities popping up and overall a new fresher awareness and well being and it's not even Wednesday, definitely not Friday.

If anyone else has played with this, I'd enjoy hearing your experiences, I'll let you know how it's working for me, stay tuned.

Leaning into new frequencies......Christie

Conscious Love

2008-05-20T09:43:00.002-04:00

The attachment we generally think of as love is an emotion. It arises as a feeling sense, something that comes easily, called up by an anonymous flow of good feelings in reaction to an outside stimulus that has triggered it.
Love is not this knee-jerk reaction to a stimulus. Love is a choice, it's a choice we make each day, each hour, each moment because we've made a decision. We've decided to love not because someone or something has make us feel good, but because we choose to live in a state of love and share it.

We choose love when we see another's soul instead of their personality. When we look through to see the spirit shining through. We see their radiance streaming through the imperfection of their personalities' physical presence.

Waiting for feelings to develop means we are reactors instead of the creators we were meant to be. It's dis-empowering, we begin to believe that forces from outside of us control our wellbeing and circumstances.

Instead the decision to love allows us to step into our inherent role as creators. As designers of our experience we choose love instead of waiting for it to choose us. This gives us a much greater field of possibility and participation. We see others not only as who they seem to be, but for who they truly are. this frees them to open up this this aspect of themselves more fully in our company.

Amazingly, they begin to reveal portions of themselves they had hidden before and we discover that they now engender those automatic feelings of love we thought they could never evoke from us. Often they find themselves bathed in good feelings toward us as well, but that isn't the point.

It's often said that we can't love others until we love ourselves, but it's a conundrum because in reality, we cannot love ourselves until we love others. Because we are them, we are all one in essence.

Choosing to love saves time, we don't need to work on judgement, guilt, blame, we cut right to the chase, we love. These states evaporate in the presence of the fullness of a love based not on emotion but upon choice.

choosing to love is predicated upon the understanding that the face you see before you or the face you see in the mirror is one of many that have been worn. Like a masquerade ball we all show up in our costumes, concealed behind a mask that disguises our true identity.

Choosing to love gives the other permission to take off the mask and allows us to do the same. As we free others from the prison of illusion, through loving consciously, we free ourselves to be the love that we are.

Thanks for listening, I wrote this because I really needed to hear it. I also want to say that although obviously I appreciate appointments and donations but I'm also very appreciative of the communication both spoken and unspoken, the flowing energy I receive from all of you who read this newsletter. It comes to me as ongoing grace I truly feel in my life.
Choosing Love......Christie
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Pain Isn't Polite

2008-05-07T11:38:00.004-04:00

Pain isn't polite conversation. I'm new to blogging but am willing to bet it's not politely correct to speak of it here either. People are uncomfortable with pain, their own and others. If you talk about pain in mixed company people begin to squirm a little. It's even worse than talking about politics or religion. Actually for me, pain was a religion, for awhile.

I needed it to be in order to move through it. I needed to look at it, dissect it, yes even wallow in it at first. As a victim of spousal abuse trying to get to freedom with two young children twenty years ago, I needed to feel the pain enough to leave. To be uncomfortable enough not to make excuses to stay. Yet I had to move through it quickly enough to find a way to escape, survive and raise my children. I did.

That was twenty years ago and unlike the battered wife syndome movies on Lifetime, I didn't walk happily off into the sunset, but I lived, quite an accomplishment at the time and even for a long time after.

But this isn't about the circumstances of pain but of pain itself. I mention the circumstances so that I can better explain my position on pain. After a very short period of time I was expected by most people to just "get over it", oh he won't come after you, he's forgotten by now" and on and on. Just for the record, it's been twenty yrs. and detectives employed by him contacted my adult daughter just three years ago. Again, off point, what is the point is that I never felt I was allowed to feel the pain and so completely work through it. It was discounted.

Yes, I went through lots and lots of counseling, which did help, when post traumatic stress syndrome can last for up to seven years and you still jump at loud noises behind you, it's a necessity. Yet it wasn' t enough to be validated for the pain I experienced if I was paying for that validation. So at some point in very close support groups and with close friends, or those I thought were, at the time, I have shared my pain. Much of the time to be shut down and told a variety of things. "Just get over it", that was so long ago, you need to heal, you enjoy being a victim" etc. Mostly it boiled down to, "just don't talk about it to me". In a particular spiritual support group one "spiritual" healer even became angry and very accusatory. I supposed her version of "tough healing". All of that is okay, as long as your pain isn't discounted. Whether it's past pain or present, each of us should be allowed to honor the experience we've encountered with pain. Not hold onto it, not embrace it, but honor that it happened, it was horrible and you've learned from it. Not, you will never ever speak of it to anyone again or you're not healed.

What's funny to me is that I've found several sites by women who have made a career of pain in one form or another, they just don't call it that. Whether it's art or discussion it's pain disguised and so more appropriate because it's couched in language that is indirect of their particular unique experience and so I suppose isn't as offensive. There's nothing wrong with this, in fact I believe it provides wonderful options for many, but let's be honest and call it what it is. This person took their "pain" and now utilize it creatively, but it's still their pain. If you read between the lines or the paint drops, it' still there pain bleeding through and that's okay.

I have no problem with it, it helps others without offending them but what offends me is our general inability to face what we're really talking about and the dishonoring of other's pain because we don't understand it. There are many particularities to pain; disease, divorce, death, abuse. But to the person experiencing it, it hurts, there's no heirarchy of pain worthiness. There's just no way to say, that pain you feel just isn't so bad, there's worse out there. Yep there is, but do you think you just helped alleviate theirs by pointing that out?

So I guess what I'm saying is this, I don't believe we should wallow in our pain, I also don't believe we need to "heal" it. It's a part of our experience, not something to be hidden away and shunned, as though our pain is dirty. We don't need to heal our experiences, they were what they were, they are what they are. We don't even need to heal ourselves so much as we need to honor who we are, what we've experienced and do the same for everyone, really everyone!

Pain isn't polite but it is real, it happens here on the planet, frequently. Yet pain may lead us to learn to navigate with less pain as we learn to traverse our path more steadily with trust. Trust in ourselves and others that we can and will honor everyone's experience with pain without a rating system and without falsity caused by fear. Now I'm not saying we should bring up our pain as cocktail party banter ( does anyone still have these?) I'm speaking of what would be intimate conversation with those close to us. It's not polite to speak of pain because it reminds others of their own, something they may have steadily worked at denying or hidden deep within their depths. Don't dig up yours or theirs.

So at the risk of being severely impolite, I simply propose that we honor one another's pain without inflicting judgment or canned aphorisms. We just listen, fully. We hold the space of honoring the other and their pain, knowing that in doing so we're helping to transform it.

Love Is What We Are

2007-12-15T11:09:00.000-05:00

I remember as a young child feeling such a strong sense of love for those around me. It's natural to feel that way about one's parents but I felt it for everyone, still feel a slight tinge of what it felt like at times. It was so strong, so yielding, trusting. Little by little aspects of it ebbed away as I was taught and learned to protect myself…..to be safe.

Certainly I'm still capable of love. I feel enormous love for my children. This probably comes closest to the feeling I hazily remember. I love my friends, humanity in general. But now there's something held back, some caution tints its' clarity.

Yet sometimes I find myself in the midst of a sensation so similar to that childlike innocence of love. It comes up unexpectedly, feels like pure delight for those few moments before I'm fully aware of the experience. Once I realize I'm in the experience of it, it seems to alter, morph into something slightly less exuberant. Then as I examine it further, it loses much of it's shimmer, it's magic. I'm left with a memory of that childlike love from the past that has flown away as I tried to capture it.

I'm grateful though for these times, these instants of remembrance. It acknowledges that the distant memories are real, not simply figments of my imagination.

I realize that love now comes tainted with protection. I see a friend shining as though their soul's light is fully revealed in all its' glory. A moment later I'm cautioning myself to find some flaw, some fault I shouldn't overlook so that I'm safe from vulnerability. No one's perfect I remind myself, then a list of their imperfections starts to run through my head. If it's someone new, I begin to brace myself for the inevitable something that is probably there that I don't yet see.

Of course, most of this is an unconscious process; I've only recently become aware of what I'm relating now. As I bring it up out of the shadows I'm beginning to understand how deeply our early life experience impacts our belief in who we are as love. We come here as beings from and of the Light, as an essence of love still remembered, untainted. Regardless of the life plan we may have designed or how it will unfold dependent upon future choices, we all begin as love. Pure untainted, without caution, we come here and to varying degrees, we forget who we were, who we really are.

We re -capture aspects of this with those closest to us but certainly not with most or with strangers. We've been taught by people, experiences, life…. that love given too freely can cause pain.

Do we ever challenge ourselves to acknowledge the loss this entails, this protective stance aimed at making ourselves invulnerable? Do we shut out much of what is potentially good with our caution? Do we dim the light of love with our need to escape pain?

I've been challenging myself in my interactions, even if only for a few minutes to look more deeply at others. I want to experience that feeling of beauty more often to a greater degree. Not just as a memory tinged by time, but as an experience I can choose consciously to embrace now.

When I look at you I want to see you, if only for an instant as you truly are. A shining light, another face of God. I want to love the soul beneath the outer covering. I hope that when you look at me, you look deeper and really see me. I promise to try. Will you?

Thanks for listening.......Christie

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Receive Your Good

2007-12-11T14:24:00.000-05:00

We talk a lot at this time of year about giving. We're told it is better to give than to receive. What if they are really one and the same? Many attempt to give so much on so many levels that they deplete themselves and become disenchanted, disappointed, disgruntled and disconnected. As a result they begin to measure how much they are getting back. They give off an energy of being owed something by life and so effectively cut themselves off from their good. There's a difference between positive expectancy, knowing you are worthy, being receptive or coming from a lack based perception of being owed something cause you haven't got much of anything.

What if instead of giving of ourselves so much that one eye becomes riveted on what's coming back to us, we focused on receiving. What if we opened to all the good trying to fight it's way through to us. As we open to recognize, embrace and receive, the natural flow from inhale to exhale occurs. In the act of appreciative reception, do we give more geniunely?

I believe we do. As we embrace and accept that there is so much goodness available to us, we demonstrate and model this to others. A true act of giving, a strong hand extended to a fellow traveler on the path. A hand whose sureness of grip says "I know the way, I'll help you to find it?

Opening to receive with positive expectancy give to others. It's the difference between buying a material gift for someone and wondering what you'll get back, or taking them on an outing somewhere you've been and pointing out all the beauty you've found there. First you had to receive the gift of going yourself and appreciating your surroundings, your reception of the gift enabled you to share what you had already received. Which is the true act of giving, and what do you prefer to receive?

So in this season of giving, remember to receive so that you can spread your blessings to others more fluently.

Many Blessings received and given......Christie

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Happiness Or Joy

2007-11-06T13:47:00.000-05:00

How are you currently feeling about your life? Is it really really good, just tolerable or terrible? Do you feel you're using some, all, or none of your abilities in most aspects of your life? Do you move through life with the routine regimen of an automaton droning out just another day? Are you happy or are you joy?

Our lives are meant to be lived in joy. That doesn't mean the feeling many call elation or happiness. The way you feel when you've just bought a new wardrobe or a new home. It's not the jump up and down feeling you had when you were ten and came down Christmas morning and found a bebe gun under the tree. If you recognize that reference then you know that I'm guilty of being sentimental , I watch "A Christmas Story" every Christmas....in fact I watch it several times.....it makes me happy, for the moment, but that's not true joy. Yet if I connect that happiness to the deeper feeling I have inside that there is actual truth revealed within that story, I transition into my foundation of joy.

Elation isn't sustainable, it's not meant to be, if it were we wouldn't come to joy. Joy is an underlying sense of trust in goodness. It's a foundational principle that abides within us. Joy is the knowing that despite outer circumstances, we are always safe beneath the whims of personality's cravings. There lies within something greater. Call it God or any name you choose, it's our connection to a greater love. It's beyond words, deeper than our normal experience. It transcends daily life yet infuses it with meaning. Joy motivates us to challenge ourselves, appear to fail and try again. To realize that what we may call failure is really an opportunity to grow.

We've all heard happiness is a choice, it is. That's why so many of us are in debt, because we make the choice consistently to feed ourselves the fleeting experience of happiness of the new and improved, and then we wonder why we feel so empty. We think the elation of happiness will fill us up, we eat, drink and purchase our way to happiness and it's still not enough, so we do it some more. Instead let's choose to delve deeper to uncover the joy that already lies within us.

If we look more deeply into ourselves and ask "What is the feeling I want to achieve here, why am I trying to fill myself up? What is it I really want to feel? Worthiness, purpose, appreciation, love? We discover the feeling we're trying so desperately to achieve is one we can give ourselves. We can feel the essence of these, we can grant this to ourselves.

We must come to the realization that we're not empty vessels. We don't need to add anything. It's already there. I'm not saying we shouldn't strive to improve aspects of our personality but that's a natural byproduct of aligning with our soul, this is where we find our joy.

When our personality is urging us on like a horse running wild, we need to rein it in and remember who we really are. We are unlimited radiant courageous divine souls. Joy is our natural state of being.

I'm not discouraging those occasional flights of fancy called happiness, neither am I minimizing the unhappiness and suffering we sometimes endure. Yet if we can remember how amazing we truly are, remember where we come from, we can return to the arms of joy.

In Light.....Christie
Christie Pennington
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Reality Constructs & Manifestation

2007-10-19T11:00:00.000-04:00

A reality construct is a belief system which serves as a kind of filter for us in life. We block or filter out certain things, we include others. This then forms our perception of our limitations and abilities. The more we examine different constructs the more we understand the role we play within a construct. We expand or contract within different constructs/belief systems.

Within some it's unlikely we would explore some of the goals that we would if we were operating from a different system. Taking on a new construct can open us up to previously unexplored potential within.

Reality seems very different when viewed from the perspective of a different context. If you've ever switched belief systems you know what I mean. For instance if you were to change your belief from that of a fundamentalist to say a Buddhist or Taoist, you would then include many options formerly unavailable to you.

Some of us realize we've assumed a construct that is disempowering for us because we realize that our ability to tackle certain challenges is severely hampered or we find we have no motivation to even pursue them. Our reality systems are the framework upon which we build our lives, our basic spiritual and philosophical beliefs are the foundation upon which our values are based. Our goals are then erected upon our values.

What is valuable to us is what we will choose to pursue as a goal. In essence then, one reality construct would lead us to pursue one set of goals while another construct might have us pursue some quite different.

If we want to manifest a particular goal or desire and have been unable to do so, it's likely that our reality construct hasn't shifted completely enough. It may filter out certain information necessary for us to access those desires. Despite positive thinking and the repetition of affirmations, if our basic construct isn't in sync with our desires, they will remain unfulfilled.

For example, if unknowingly you carry vestiges of a construct which includes a belief that most of what happens to you is beyond your control, that God/the Universe is a puppet master, you will have difficulty realizing results. If you view yourself within your reality as basically flawed, defective in some way, whether because of original sin or childhood experiences you must let go of those aspects of your former paradigm to live fully within a new one. Living within the new one fully allows your desires to manifest.

So it's essential we investigate our construct deeply. We have the choice to remain within a former one and so perhaps reorient our desires. Or we can choose another construct and move into it so completely that we allow our desires to manifest.

Amazing Grace

2007-10-03T12:58:00.000-04:00

Amazing Grace has always been one of my favorite hymns. Hmmm, wonder why they call them "hymns", and not "hers". Anyway, I wasn't exposed to this hymn as a child but when I heard it for the first time I was mesmerized, I still can't listen to it without tears welling up.

I was recently thinking about grace in my life and realized that many people have come into my life as instruments of grace. Some of them have stayed, some have not, yet they all in their own unique way have taught me something about love. Sometimes not in the way I would have preferred.

Still it has been grace, it has caused me to grow and to expand. I wanted to honor all of them, so thought about listing their names on my site. But that could create issues, some might feel slighted if their name didn't appear listed. I thought about offering to add the names of any I may have overlooked, but I might run out of space.

Originally, I thought I would have two catagories, those currently active in my life and a generalized notation of those that I appreciated though they were not currently active. I've since decided that could potentially open up a Pandora's Box, so I left that box unopened.

I'm still not sure if I'll put up some form of Amazing Grace List on my site, maybe someday I'll come up with an improved version. For now, I'll leave it for this blog to honor the Amazing Grace in my life.

I say that in present tense because whether or not you are here in my life now or you were just passing through, please know that I honor you now. For me you remain present as Amazing Grace in my life. No lists....you know who you are.

Thanks and Gratitude,
Christie Pennington

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Conscious Creation

2007-09-27T13:31:00.000-04:00

I've always been interested in conscious creation, even before it had a name. I noticed that it seemed some people managed to create more of what they wanted then others, they made it seem easy. Though I can't tell you that I manage to do it as well as some, I've come to a point where the process isn't so mystifying and I've actually created a lot of what I wanted. I've also created some of what I didn't want. I came to realize that I was always creating, consciously on purpose, or not.

To create consciously we first must learn to focus our attention, much of the time our attention isn't focused on what we want, truth be told, most of the time our attention isn't focused at all. It wanders randomly so instead of creating what we want, we create by default.

Without the ability to focus our attention on what we want, we can't utilize tools such as visualization or affirmation effectively. If we don't direct our focus how can we direct our beliefs and the feelings we need to generate to enact a positive outcome?

If our attention isn't focused on what we want we're susceptible to absorbing the energetic desires and beliefs of those around us, even strangers. For this reason first, it's helpful to be mindful of where we allow our attention to be directed. Where are we unconsciously putting our attention and leaking energy focus? Do you spend lots of time wandering through shopping malls among crowds of people, read most of the billboards on the highway, incessantly check your email watch a lot of t.v. especially the news? My weakness is the email thing!

We can hone our focusing skills by deliberately directing our attention in a specific way. Although at first it may seem as though we're off course when we focus on something simple, it's a valuable disciplinary practice. In Taoism, monks used similar mundane exercises to empower themselves to achieve some amazing feats. For instance, when entering a room force yourself to observe the number of chairs, tables, light fixtures, windows, count them. How many pictures are on the wall? How many people in the room? You can make up your own variations, but do it for ten minutes a day for thirty days and you'll be surprised at the results.

Although you may feel silly, it forces you to deliberately direct your attention, once proficient you can then focus your attention on those things you truly want to create.

Let me know if you have any techniques that have worked for you that you might want to share.

Blessings.....Christie

Surrender

2007-09-13T14:17:00.000-04:00

I've never enjoyed the sound of the word surrender. It always felt to me like giving up - well tha's what it means in war. When I studied Eastern religions and yoga I discovered that there was more to it, that there were layers of meaning to surrender. I still didn't care for it too much. It still seemed distasteful, a bitter medicine I wanted to avoid.

I'm finally at the point where I can see surender from a different perspective. I came to apoint this week when I couldn't continue to try to push my life into the neat arrangement I had laid out in my head. I was ready to surrender.

Not give up, or accept with resignation, but surrender. A feeling of relief welled up in me and I wrote this to myself..... I thought it might be helpful to you or someone, if only one so I put it here:

Surrender into something deeper, A vaster version of yourself beyond the box of your delination. Dream a different, bigger dream. Live in trust. Everything that seems to be falling away is leading you back to yourself.

Realize you are being led, stop trying to hold on to what was, it wasn't what you wanted anyway. Live more and more from the unseen. Be gentle with everything.

Stay open . Are you willing to let go of what was to allow more and different to come? Release the tight grasp on how you think it should be to allow what can be. All that's needed is willingness. Don't demand to see, just say yes!

Be gentle, here lies your strength.

Stop trying to force, it's unfolding, look at the beauty of not knowing, at the possibilities inherent in not knowing, how beautiful it is becoming.

The artist enjoys even more what can be then the finished product. This is what leads him to create again and again. The writer repeats what many have said before, yet continues to write. There is always in potential another way to phrase, another creation of beauty to come.

What we hunger for is the participation in the act of creation. As we surrender our limited ideas of what makes our happiness, we make the space for creation to begin.